Chapter One
"Why
don't you say that again," Raider suggested in a deceptively soft voice.
The
man who had served at her side for years, through thick and thin, during a war
that threatened to decimate the human race seemed calm. Serene even.
Unnaturally so, given the life-altering revelation that he had a daughter he’d
never known with a woman long since thought dead in said war.
It was
his eyes that gave him away. They burned with suppressed emotion.
Raider
was on the brink, and Kira was standing directly in the blast zone.
The
waif responsible for this whole mess kicked her feet from where she was seated
beside Kira, utterly unconcerned over the repercussions of her dramatic
revelation.
Oh, to
be young and convinced of your own invincibility again.
Years
of planning wiped clean by a few careless words.
Kira
had known this day was coming. If she was honest with herself, this showdown
had been inevitable from the instant Kira learned of Elena's existence and
chose not to track Raider down to inform him that his and Elise's love bore
physical fruit.
It
didn't make the coming explosion any easier to take.
You
didn't drop a bomb the magnitude of the one she just had and expect to walk
away unscathed.
There
were consequences to your actions. No matter how you struggled, they always
came due.
This
was the calm before the storm. You could see it on the horizon, feel the
gathering pressure in the air, but there was no way to outrun it. No way to
hide from it. All you could do was batten down the hatches and pray that the
storm would leave you battered and bruised but otherwise alive.
Kira’s
uncle frowned unhappily from his spot next to the doorway. Piercing golden eyes
lingered on Elena. "I'm interested in hearing this as well."
The Overlord
of House Roake was built like an armored tank. Power was written in every line
of his body and stamped on his features.
A
stranger to Kira until recently, even she could admit the family resemblance
between them was unmistakable. They looked like father and daughter rather than
uncle and niece.
The
line of their noses and the stubborn jut of their jaws were nearly identical.
It was the hair, however, that clinched it. A distinctive deep wine color that
verged on burgundy.
A
vertical scar bisected Harlow's eyebrow, narrowly missing the eye before
dragging down his cheek. Already physically imposing, the scar made Harlow even
more intimidating. Kira was betting none who served him ever questioned his
orders. One hard stare would have his warriors swallowing any protests.
Of
those present, Harlow was the one most likely to understand why Kira had chosen
this course. Why she'd made the decisions she had. Like her, he hadn't lived an
easy life.
He’d been
forced to assume leadership of a broken House when an attack from a shadowy
organization had left his twin brother dead and his baby niece stolen.
He
knew sometimes choices had to be made that hurt the people around you, even as
it kept them alive.
House
Roake had not only survived but thrived under his leadership.
Already
she could see him doing the calculations and arriving at answers that
threatened her future wellbeing.
Elena
frowned. "Auntie, you never told me the sperm donor had a hearing problem."
"Not
helping," Kira told her niece in a sing-song voice.
Elena
harrumphed, folding her arms over her chest.
Raider
pointed at Kira. "Explain. Now."
At
that, a mischievous expression crossed Elena’s face. "Didn't anybody ever
teach you that pointing is rude, sperm donor?"
Raider's
nostrils flared as he took a deep breath, holding onto his temper by a thread.
He kept his gaze locked on Kira, not acknowledging his daughter's existence.
Mistake,
Raider.
Elena
might have biologically come from Elise, but there was a lot of Kira and Jin in
her. Evidently, nurture was as important as nature when it came to personality,
and a few of Kira and Jin's less than desirable traits had rubbed off on her,
including the fact that none of them reacted particularly well to being
ignored.
Sensing
the danger, Jin inserted himself between the two. "Let's all stay
calm."
In a
universe filled with odd things, Jin's existence was unique unto itself. Once a
Tuann boy in the same hellish camp as Kira, Jin's soul was now housed in a
military combat drone that took the shape of a sphere the size of Kira's head.
He was
Kira’s best friend, her partner in crime. He’d saved her life and sanity more
times than she can count.
"Don't
tell me to stay calm, Tin Can." Raider's composed mask shredded, leaving
him looking vaguely homicidal. "You don't get to say that to me. Not when
you knew about this."
Jin
was silent in the face of Raider’s accusation. Guilt and regret filtered
through Kira and Jin's bond, his feelings tangling with Kira's complicated
ones.
There
was a kernel of hurt Kira buried almost as soon as it registered—especially in
light of all the progress they’d made at rebuilding their relationship in the
past weeks.
With
that hurt came resignation. She knew she deserved his recriminations. She’d
made decisions on his behalf that she had no business making.
"Are
you going to say anything?" Raider snapped at Kira.
Emotion
clogged Kira’s throat as she sought for the words to make this right. An
impossible task. Where would she even start?
"She
can't." Elena kicked her feet, unconcerned by the imminent explosion.
Graydon
finally stirred from his place in the doorway. "What do you mean by
that?"
There
was something about the man known as the Emperor’s Face that always made Kira
feel like she was standing on the edge of a storm front, watching it roll in,
breathless at the magnitude of what she was facing. The cloud formations would
be ominous, even as they whispered to the adrenaline junky inside. How much fun
would she have pitting herself against its fury?
He was
handsome. Almost brutally so with the kind of presence that punched you in the
chest. Dark hair framed features that contained a harsh edge that drew the eye.
It was
a good thing he rarely ventured into human space. The paparazzi there would
have been all over him otherwise. Photos of him would have spawned a renewed
interest in stories about human women falling in love with powerful and
dangerous aliens.
Graydon
didn't need any more reason to be arrogant. His ego was already big enough.
Kira
wasn't a small woman, but Graydon towered over her. He was six feet plus of
pure muscle, not an ounce of fat anywhere to be seen.
Memories
of how exactly Kira came by that knowledge drifted through her brain before she
firmly shoved them into the box marked "things you are to never think
about".
Kira
looked in time to see Elena aim a sweet smile at Graydon.
"She
made a promise. Auntie always keeps her promises."
Faint
amusement touched Graydon’s face. "Is that right?"
"Elena,"
Kira warned.
Her
niece was getting too close to secrets Kira didn’t want getting out. Beyond the
fact it could place Elena in danger, there were others Kira protected. A few of
whom would stop at nothing to bury the past. Kira wasn't certain even she could
rescue Elena if they started to move.
"Please
continue." Graydon sauntered across the room, sprawling in the copilot's
seat opposite her niece. He aimed a conspiring look at Elena.
Like a
flower drawn to the sun, Elena leaned toward him.
The
sight snapped Kira into the present. She stepped between the two and shook her
head. "Nope. Not going to happen."
Elena
frowned up at her, but Kira didn't budge. Elena could sulk all she liked, but
Kira knew exactly how irresistible Graydon was when he wanted to be. No way was
she going to let him charm her niece into revealing dangerous information. That
way lay disaster.
Kira
narrowed her eyes at Graydon as she considered him carefully. What exactly was
he up to?
There
was none of the anger she'd anticipated. The disgust she'd braced herself for,
even as she regretted the loss of midnight strolls that lulled her into losing
all semblance of reason. The drugging kisses that made her think "what
if".
Yet
despite expectations, he was acting as if nothing had changed. Almost like he'd
known all along.
Hope
tried to bloom before she ruthlessly squashed it.
Graydon
was the consummate hunter. There was every chance he was simply playing a part
and masking his thoughts. Lives other than her own depended on her actions. She
couldn't risk the others because she was lonely and tired and wanted someone to
help her shoulder the burden. Not take it from her, but lighten the load when
things got hard.
Kira
shored up her defenses, rebuilding them inch by inch. Only when she felt in
control again did she focus on Graydon. She stilled as she caught something in
his expression. Something that seemed to say, "Gotcha. I see you now, and
there's no escape."
Before
Kira could react, Graydon's attention settled on her niece. "You were
saying?"
Elena
answered without hesitation. "The kind of promises people kill to
keep."
Kira
blew out a frustrated breath as she aimed her eyes at the ceiling. Perhaps this
was her punishment for a youth spent purposely antagonizing Himoto and other
authority figures. She loved Elena like her own, but lord, she could try the
patience of a saint.
Suddenly,
Kira had way more sympathy for the young Himoto who'd gotten stuck raising her.
"I
suddenly have so many regrets about our youth," Jin grumbled.
Kira agreed.
"This
isn't possible," Raider insisted suddenly. "Elise and I never had
kids. I would have known."
Elena's
gaze dropped, some of her bravado draining as she shrank in her seat.
Regret
moved through Kira. Elena had always known about her father. Kira and Jin had
each made a point of telling Elena stories about Raider and Elise. Neither of
them had had parents or memories to keep them company, and they didn't want
that fate for Elena. Circumstances had separated her niece from her parents, and
the least Kira and Jin could do was keep their spirit alive.
Perhaps
that had been a mistake. If they hadn't, Elena wouldn't have built this
encounter up in her head. She wouldn't be hurting now as she learned that
fantasies rarely matched up to reality.
Too
late now.
Kira
cast her eyes around the bridge, hoping for an answer. There were none to be
had. It was time for the truth.
Kira
cleared her throat, forcing her emotions into their respective boxes.
"The
Gregory detail."
Raider's
lips pressed closed, his expression going blank.
"She
was gone nearly six months, remember?"
Raider
rubbed his head as he stared unseeing at the bridge of the Wanderer.
She
could see the wheels starting to turn. He had all the pieces; he simply needed
to put them together.
"She
was distant for a month or two before that," Raider said distantly.
"She was always busy; she barely had time for me. I thought it was because
of the op tempo."
Kira
nodded.
Raider
wasn't the only person Elise had avoided in the months leading up to the
detail. She'd pulled back from everyone. Even Kira.
"The
mission was a cover story. Instead of the escort detail we thought she'd been
tapped for, she headed to the planet Rosetta where she gave birth. Afterward,
she returned to duty with no one the wiser."
"Why
didn't she tell me?" Quiet devastation lurked in Raider’s eyes.
Kira
mutely shook her head. She didn't know. Even all these years later, Kira could
only guess at Elise's reasoning.
Kira
could understand concealing the pregnancy and giving birth in secret. Elise's
identity had practically demanded such precautions. Keeping it from Raider and
Kira, the two people she would have sworn Elise trusted unreservedly? Kira
never expected that.
But
Elise had, leaving Kira to deal with the fallout all these years later.
Raider
looked at Kira like she'd betrayed him. Like she'd walked up and sunk a blade
in his gut.
A part
of her shriveled seeing that look on his face, the same one he’d had when he
learned Elise had perished in the battle for Rothchild.
The
worst part was she couldn’t even defend herself.
While
she hadn't known about Elena then, Kira also hadn't taken steps to correct the
wrong in the years since she’d discovered Elena’s existence. She’d been too
hindered by fear of the Tsavitee finding out about Elena and guilt she’d
survived Rothchild when her Curs hadn’t.
Even
now, Kira wasn't sure she would have done anything differently. Not when the
result was sitting right next to her, disobedient pain in the ass though she
was.
"It's
because the girl is Tuann, isn't it?" Harlow folded his massive arms over
his chest, leveling a hard stare on Kira. "You told me you were the only
one rescued."
"Technically
true. I was the only one rescued."
Well,
with the exception of Jin, but Kira couldn't say that without revealing Jin's
special circumstances.
When
Himoto and his team saved Kira, they'd also brought with them the drone lying
beside her, thinking it would answer some of the questions they had about the
smoldering stretch of forest surrounding her.
It
did, just not in the way they'd expected.
Understanding
dawned in Graydon's expression. "The others escaped."
Gold
star to the Emperor's Face.
Truthfully,
Kira wasn't surprised he was the one to figure it out. He was entirely too
perceptive for Kira's peace of mind. Also, he'd had access to a small slice of
Kira's memories. It wasn't much to go on, but it was enough for a man like
Graydon.
In the
back of her mind, she had to ask herself what else he'd managed to glean from
that brief trip down memory lane.
At
that thought, Kira shot an accusing glare toward Jin, the being responsible for
Graydon venturing where he had no business being.
Jin
whistled to himself, rotating so the primary lens on his casing was facing away
from her.
"How
many survived?"
Kira’s
expression turned stubborn.
Harlow’s
eyes narrowed at her refusal. "They're our stolen children. They deserve
to be protected."
Maybe
so.
Only
problem was they weren't little kids. They’d grown used to relying on
themselves.
Kira
didn't think they would react well to the Tuann's version of love, which could
be considered overbearing with a side of patronizing on a good day.
"Have
we treated you so shabbily that we deserve this level of distrust?" Harlow
demanded.
The
simple answer was no.
When
she'd first been forced into House Roake, she'd been certain she'd obtain her
freedom in short order. Instead, she'd found a place and people that felt
astonishingly like home.
The
Tuann were hardheaded and arrogant, thinking they always knew best. It was
something they and Kira had in common. Despite that—or maybe because of it—they
called to the lost, broken pieces of her.
But the
others weren't like her. They weren't looking for a home or friends. Those who wanted
those things already had them, and the rest were so broken that trying to fit
them into the Tuann rules would cause them to lash out.
If she
revealed who they were, the Tuann would spare no effort in reclaiming their
lost progeny. She didn't have to be a fortune teller to know how that would end—with
blood and mayhem and a whole lot of hurt feelings on both sides.
Better
if that never happened.
Elena
planted a boot on the deck and swiveled her chair side to side. "It's not
her decision. The others don't want to be found right now."
Harlow's
gaze dropped to her niece. "What do you mean?"
Elena
sat forward eagerly. "Shall I tell you a story?"
"No."
Kira sent her a warning look.
Rebellion
flared in Elena's expression. "You made promises, Auntie, but I didn't."
"Don't
you dare," Kira growled.
"Let
her speak." Raider's gaze held Kira’s, a silent dare there. "You owe
me."
Kira
shook her head. He didn't know what he was asking.
Elena
ignored Kira, bouncing in her chair with excitement. "It all began long ago
on the night Auntie and Uncle Jin were rescued."
Kira held
in a groan. Why, why, why, couldn't she have raised an obedient child?
A soft
rumble of amusement came from Graydon. Kira stiffened but didn't look away from
the ceiling.
"The
others had planned their escape for weeks. That night Uncle Jin failed a test
and was thrown into a punishment cell. The rest knew escaping from there would
be impossible. They regretted his loss but not enough to postpone their plans.
Only Auntie was willing to sacrifice herself for him."
Harlow
had a frown on his face as he studied Kira and Jin, suspicion moving through
his eyes.
Kira's
expression smoothed out, no hint of emotion revealing what she was thinking.
This right here was reason number one why she would have preferred this story
remain buried.
Someone
smart would be able to take what was revealed and read through the lines,
arriving at a truth that only a handful of people had ever touched upon.
Because
Jin hadn't always been a machine, made of metal and spare parts. Once he'd been
flesh and blood, just like her.
Kira
readied herself, prepared to defend Jin and Elena if Harlow or Graydon decided
they were monsters to be exterminated. It'd kill something inside of her to
hurt either one of them, but she'd do it.
Blissfully
unaware of the danger, Elena continued, "When the others fled, Auntie and
Uncle Jin made their own escape. For years, each group suspected the other had
perished that night, but they had no proof. Then the war with the Tsavitee came,
and out of its ashes a woman known as the Phoenix rose to acclaim. Hearing the
stories, the others sent someone to investigate."
"Elise,"
Raider said.
Elena
nodded happily. "Yes, Mother."
Kira's
expression was carefully blank as Raider studied her.
"They
feared this unknown woman would expose their existence—or worse, that she was a
trap laid by their former captors," Elena said. "Never in their
wildest dreams did they think they'd find the two they'd abandoned."
Nor
were they entirely happy when they did.
By
then, Kira and Jin had made a name for themselves, drawing attention from the
very sort of people the others wanted to avoid.
"Mother
had orders to stage the Phoenix's death and bring her into the fold where it
was safe. Only, the Phoenix refused to go, and not even Mother could force
her."
Raider
focused on his daughter as he compared Elena to the woman he'd once known
Physically,
Elena was an almost exact replica of her mother. Enough so that Kira had been
tempted to think she was a cleverly designed clone when they'd first met. Jin
had been the one to assure her he'd found genetic material in her DNA that
could only have come from Raider.
Her
ears were as pointed as Elise's and Kira's had once been before they were
docked. She had the same delicate features, complete with a pert nose, lips in
the shape of a cupid's bow, and a pointed chin that only made her look more
mischievous.
"Mother
struck a deal with the rest. No matter how bad the war got or how much she
needed help, the Phoenix would never reveal their existence by word or deed.
She would face her enemies alone with no help from the rest."
What
Elena left out—because she didn't know—was the fact that Elise had tried to
kill Kira a time or two before they came to that happy compromise.
While
Elise was the sister of Kira's heart now, she hadn't always been that way.
Not
that Kira blamed her or the rest. At that time, she'd been an unknown entity,
and their existence was precarious.
None
of them had wanted to chance being someone's science experiment again.
Kira
understood.
There
was no way she could assure them that humans wouldn't resurrect the project
again, their aim to create a super-soldier.
Alone,
Kira had been deemed a freak, her abilities mostly kept under wraps and
categorized as top secret, courtesy of Himoto. Only people like Raider and the
Curs knew the full extent of what she could do. Everyone else had simply
thought there was a new weapon or that the Curs were exceptionally lucky.
If the
others came forward, the Consortium might have considered how they could
replicate their abilities, and then the whole nightmare would have started
again.
Knowing
how painful this subject was for her, Elena slipped her hand into Kira's and
squeezed. "Mother couldn't abandon the Phoenix so she joined her. For a
time, the Phoenix and Sunshine were happy. Then Mother became pregnant.
Sunshine knew a child of hers would draw the attention of those who sought
nothing but death and destruction. To protect her child, she hid her—even from
her lover and sister. In fact, she hid the child so well that it took the
Phoenix and Tin Man years to find her again."
Raider
was quiet as his gaze lifted to Kira's. "Did you know back then?"
"Raider,"
Kira started.
"Did
you?"
"No,"
Jin said, answering for her. "It took a long time to put the pieces
together. Kira was still in her coma when I finally tracked Elena down."
Raider's
eyes held a glassy sheen as he dropped his gaze to his feet.
"I
knew it was too dangerous for Elena to be in our vicinity, especially with Kira
out of action. I placed her with a guardian I trusted," Jin said.
"Did
you never think I had the right to know?" Raider asked through gritted
teeth, clinging to control by only the slimmest of margins.
"I
couldn't do that without risking Elena's safety."
Raider
made a harsh sound rife with disbelief.
"Think
about who you were then," Jin snapped. "You were damn near crazed. You
both were. You'd just lost your surrogate family. Kira threw herself into the
war. She damn near killed herself a dozen times. What did you do?"
Raider
started to turn away.
Jin
didn't let him, invading his space and hovering menacingly over Raider.
"Because I remember the words you said after it all went down. How you
wished it was Kira who died. I remember the messages I sent that you
ignored."
"So
that justifies keeping this from me?" Raider roared.
"Of
course not," Jin snarled. "But it helps explain it. The war had just
ended. You and any other Cur who survived were being shielded by the military,
your whereabouts considered classified so our enemies didn't try to kill you.
You were all targets."
Raider's
eyes flared. "Do you really expect me to believe the great Jin couldn't
have hacked that information?"
Jin
scoffed. "Of course I could have, but not without arousing suspicions and
possibly revealing Elena's existence."
Interest
crossed Graydon's face. "Why would they have cared?"
Elena
perked up, the tilt of her head coy. "Because I'm the first of my kind.
Tuann, human—and other."
Kira
tensed as silence descended.
Graydon
and Harlow were still, motionless, as if they barely dared to breathe.
Kira
watched them for signs of aggression.
Several
long seconds passed as they considered each other.
Kira
waited.
"That
explains some things," Graydon said thoughtfully.
"Maybe
to you," Raider spat. He glared at Kira. "Explain."
Elena
opened her mouth, only for Kira to cover it before she could speak.
"I
think you've done quite enough for now," Kira told her niece.
Elena
glared unhappily over Kira's hand. Kira waited for a sign of grudging agreement
before letting Elena go.
"It's
simple, Raider," Kira bit out, emotion making her unwise. "Elise was
in the same camp as me. A camp ultimately controlled by the Tsavitee. Genetic
manipulation was one of their favorite experiments. Understand now, or do you
need me to continue?"
The
mood in the air went electric, the tension threatening to turn explosive.
Raider
bared his teeth at Kira, looking an inch from going for her throat. In
retrospect, sarcasm probably wasn't the best tactic to take.
He
pointed at her and shook his head, aggression pouring off him. Even then, he
didn't trust himself to speak, slamming off the bridge without another word.
Kira
scrubbed one hand over her face, regret at her hasty words giving rise to the
sick feeling in her stomach. "That could have gone better."
Jin
snorted. "Really? I thought it went great. He didn't try to kill either of
us. I count that as a win."
This
was true. Raider wasn’t a turn-the-other-cheek kind of guy. He was notorious
for seeking retribution for any and all insults.
And
Kira had wronged him way worse than any before.
The
situation could have easily ended with blood shed. It hadn't. His restraint had
been admirable—and unexpected.
He’d
retired from the battlefield with barely a shot fired.
Kira
didn't know whether to be relieved or worried.
A
hurt, lost sound distracted Kira from her thoughts. Her niece's lips quivered,
cutting Kira to the quick.
She
closed her eyes, wishing for a split second she could kick her own ass. Great
job, genius. Look what you've done.
Kira
knelt by Elena's side, setting a gentle hand on her shoulder. "I'm sorry. You
should know his reaction has nothing to do with you. It's entirely my
fault."
Elena's
nod was small, reminding Kira that her niece was still very much a child. Elena
might act with a bravado and cockiness only present in the very young, but she
had the same need to be loved as all children. The desire to be part of a
family.
Kira's
hand closed into a fist and knocked Elena softly on the head. "Cheer up,
buttercup. He'll come around in the end."
Even
if Kira had to spend a little time beating sense into that thick head of his.
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